Why Am I Still Single? : Too Emotional

Hey there reader, if you’re here reading this it’s one of three things :

1) You’ve been following this series and are curious about what I have to say

2) You are like me. And the title reminded you of yourself.

3) You enjoy getting to know me through my reasons.

Whichever one you fall into is completely ok by me. Yes I am completely, utterly emotional. Words mean a lot to me, both the bad and the good ones cut right through me. I can’t help it. Even the silence gets to me. And it flat out sucks. Being human we were created outta love, emotions, so of course it’s normal to feel things. Loosing a loved one, getting your heart shattered, it all hurts. I’ve had my heart broken one too many times, I’ve made promises

“I’ll never love again”“I’ll never care again”

Time and time again I’ve found myself making the same mistakes. Or if I’m lucky a brand new mistake. Sometimes we find ourselves falling for someone even though we’re not trying to, you really can’t force love, sadly you can’t stop it either.

I try not to make connections, I try not to love, and even when I do, I walk away. End things while it’s still good. End things before you do. Things hurt, whether it’s the hurtful word of a sibling or partner. Or their actions.

People will always hurt you whether it’s intentional or unintentional.

You’ll cry, maybe till your eyes hurt, maybe just a warm tear, maybe your chest will hurt, maybe you’d feel like you can’t breathe, maybe your eyes would be blood red, maybe you’d get a headache, maybe you’d feel physically drained and weak, maybe you’d feel your heart bleed, then maybe you’d convince yourself you’re dead on the inside because you think it’d protect you from repeating itself.

Or maybe you’re the kind who won’t cry, maybe you’d bury yourself in work or school, maybe you’d find an outlet and move to the next, it’s all a maybe, right?

Or maybe you’re like me and you’d feel it all.

You probably have that playlist, filled with all the sad songs ever, you probably gathered the songs together not knowing a day would come that you’d need them.

Need them to voice your feelings, need them cry as much as you want.

If you came here searching for a solution, I’m afraid I have none. I’m just like you, I’m just another overly sensitive person. Being like this I’ve decided it’s best to be single, there’s already a lot of hurt from friendships, family and life itself, why add anything else?

Nosce te Ipsum -Know thyself.

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That had a sad ending, yeah that happens when speaking about emotions.

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6 thoughts on “Why Am I Still Single? : Too Emotional

    1. Even as I wrote it I was emotional, and yes it does feel safer but then it leaves you asking “till when?” “for how long?” the answers, I still do not have, I hope to find them in the concluding parts of the series. And I hope you do too ❤

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      1. Im looking forward to it. I have a sudden urge to step out of my comfort zone, but I’m reluctant to do so. I think I need a sign to get myself to move. Maybe this is it.

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  1. This was emotional to read, I can absolutely relate to some parts of it. “Words mean a lot to me” I am the same, for me words are important and I take them very seriously but most of the times I’ve seen people not taking them seriously, which sucks.
    Glad to have you writing again! Cheers

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